Tuesday, May 30, 2006
It was a very hot day today,,so my son and I went down to our river, the Harpeth river. I have been taking the kids there for years. Alot of people canoe the river and that is the take out point where different canoe rental co. come and pick canoers up at. Its all little rocks on the beach. I always find alot of nice smooth river glass there. I trained the kids to look for river glass for me,,and today my 21 yr. old son, Kyle still found some for me. He knows how much I Love it.
I just don't know what I would do without my Kyle. He and I are so close. His sister and I are not talking right now. Well I would love to talk to her,,but she has wrote me off because I cannot accept her "man". He is a loser,,she is just 19 and he is 27, doesn't work and has been in and out of jail,,,he has no future,,and that is not what I want for my baby girl. I Love her so much and she has so much potential,,but I just cannot accept him. I sound awful I know,,but there is alot more to the story,,and I just can't write about it because it makes me so depressed.
But my son always has been here for me,,,he never forgets my birthday or Mothers day,,he is still finding his way in life,,but I am so proud of him. And he was a little devil when he was young,,and Kalyn was a little Angel,,funny how things change.
Thank you Kyle for spending the afternoon with me,,,even if it did storm.
Kalyn,,,I miss You so much,,and I hope that one day if you have a daughter you will understand why I feel the way I do.