The day before 9/11

Its just so hard to believe that its been 5 years since 9/11. My heart is still so sad about that time. I just can't imagine how the people that lost their love ones feel when this date comes up every year. I remember that day so clearly. I was still at home, at that time I worked at home alot. He called and said, "did you hear that a plane crashed into the Trade Towers?" I quickly turned on the t.v., just in time to see the second plane crash into the other tower. Then that dreaded feeling of thinking, "whoa,,this is not accidental,,something bad is happenning to our country",,,I remember feeling very vulnerable,,wanting to rush to my childrens school and get them out, calling Daniel and my parents,,wanting to be with them. I just didn't want to be by myself. I went next door to our bestfriends house. Buddy, was home, his kids at school, and wife Ginny at work. They were from upstate New York,,about a hour north of NYC. I remember us sitting there glued to the T.V,,and when the first building fell,,we both started crying. We knew the second one would probably come down too. Then they showed the pentagon,,and talking about a fourth airplane headed for the White House. It just felt like it was a movie,,,but it was real.
Later when I did pick the kids up from school,,they had been watching it all day at school,,luckily they were old enough to understand it,,but were still very afraid. Asking "what if they start bombing us Mom?",,,reassuring them that it was ok,,that we were safe, but also telling them to pray for all the people who were missing their Loved ones,,or who were seriously injured. I wonder if any of us will every forget that day? I know that I will never forget, nor do I want too,,because I am more wary now,,more cautious,, always watching whats going on around me. I learned that day that we were not indefensible,,that the U.S. was capable of being hurt, and being hurt bad.
I don't like the wars that are going on right now. But yet they do seem to help us from being attacked again. Or is it because we are more strict and our guard is up? I don't know. We almost lost alot more people if the terrorist activity in London had not been discovered in time to prevent it. I do think that one day,,,we will be hit again. I just pray that we will be prepared for it.
So,,I guess you can tell that this is heavy on my mind today. But I will remember it forever as I am sure everyone else will too.